today was tough, but it was also beautiful.

i woke up

bad breath

feeling like shit

full of muddy self doubt. 

but i danced with it

i unraveled in my blistering tenderness 

i sang with my pain, loved my tears, reached out to my sadness

i lived today.

it was not pretty.

it was not sweet.

it was not precious. 

but it was beautiful

because it was real. 

it was messy, gritty

mouthwatering

to my

soul. 

i lived today. 

i was so alive today---

alive in my tears. 

vibrant in my pain. 

ignited in my frustrated doubt. 

i lived today

that's what matters

most. 

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